Are you feeling fine? Yes, I feel just fine.

I know, it's been a while. The internet at the house has been temporarily shut off because Bellsouth sucks, and Charter sucks twice as much and they take forever to turn on internet service. But I should have it back on by next Saturday. I hope, anyway.

Life for me, lately, has been filled with a ton of ups and downs. I'm going to stick to the ups, because I'm sick of dwelling on the downs.

I graduated.
Evan and I are talking again. And by talking I mean hanging out, and making out, as well as.... other things.... that my mind is telling me to stay away from, but my wild side is telling me to pursue. I think I see this going somewhere again. Actually getting fixed and working out. We say we love each other, and we kiss and spend time together, and never fight... but he's using the old "I don't want to be tied down into a commitment" bullshit story. So I don't know how that is going to go. But for now I'm just enjoying his company, playing Day of the Tentacle and watching Heroes and letting him blow my mind away with his presence. And yeah, maybe this will only end in tears for me. But it's better than sitting around doing nothing and longing for things to be different. Sue me.

There's not really much else to say. He's taking me to dinner and a movie tomorrow. I don't know if it's a date or not. ...I want it to be... but it's not. Probably. I'm really just not sure. But it's nice to pretend things are fine. Because when he's around things ARE fine.

And then things always seem to change.
But I'm holding on to the little things... while I still can.