What sucks the most about not being able to access Blogspot at school is that, all day long I have many different thoughts about what I need to post about, and by the end of the day, I've forgotten all of them.
Things are coming up on me so fast... and it's really stressing me out/making me sad. It seems like just yesterday we were all sitting in the auditorium watching videos about graduation and getting order forms for our robes etc. Now I've got LESS than 3 months, and I'll have graduated. No more Mr. Johnson. No more choir or Chris or musicals or Mr. Fullington. Where did the time ago? When did I become a senior? I was a freshman just yesterday, sitting in health class with Stefania, writing notes in a three ring binder. Now Stefania's gone. Either dead or pregnant or moved away or married. It's sad to think about. When I was little time would move so slow. A summer felt like a decade and school stretched through the century. You wished every day would just start and end as fast as it began. Now I'm waking up and praying the day will draw out as long as it can. I don't want this to end. These are memories... moments I'll never be able to relive. I don't know if I want to let go. I'm afraid of the future and wishing for the past.
These next few weeks are going to be so cluttered and packed together. I figure I'll just let out my calendar right here, seeing as how Evan is a loser, and can't remember shit... and some people read this who might need a reminder for the following things as well:
WEDNESDAY, MARCH 12TH, 12:30 pm: I give blood for Red Cross. Last time I did I was scheduled in at 12:30, and didn't get out until 2. So... yeah.
FRIDAY, MARCH 14TH, 9 am: We have festival at Brevard college for our Madrigal singers.
MONDAY, MARCH 17TH, 7 pm: Is the Talent Show. And all of my friends had better be there to cheer me on! I won last year, and I hope to win this year too. Which reminds me, Evan probably isn't going to be there (AGAIN) and I am severely upset about this. :(
WEDNESDAY, MARCH 19TH, 10 pm: We leave for New York, and stay until SUNDAY, MARCH 23rd, 10 pm, but the second we arrive back I'm leaving for Florida to go to Universal Studios/Busch Gardens/ SeaWorld, with my grandma and sisters until SUNDAY, MARCH 30TH, when I come back home.
And then April 18th is prom, and then May 3rd, 4th, and 5th is the musical, and then Graduation is June 7th, as well as Lauren's Graduation party, and the very next day is Collete's graduation party, and then on the 11th is MY graduation party/surprise birthday party for Alex. Then Evan and I plan to go to Daytona Beach for my Graduation present.
Crazy.
I have a major headache. I'm going to go light some incense and try to lay in the dark without sleeping.
Ciao.
~Stef
2 comments:
You are so amazing. I just want to let you know that I love you and that your blog is read (or checked, seeing as how you hardly ever update) by me everyday.
You need to update more often so I know how things are going on your front. And I will definitely try to make it to the talent show/musical.
-R.J.
Actually, more than likely I WILL be there. At the talent show, that is. I mean, I can't miss it TWO years in a row. Not when it means so much to you. You forget one very important ingredient in all this... I love you.
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