Happy now and Happy hence and Happy Ever After

Man, I was wondering why I've been feeling so freaking emotional lately... and then started my period. So I least I'm not completely losing my mind... completely.

I still love Evan more than life, and he's not going to leave me for Ariel, (because he isn't like that at all, and I don't know what the hell got that into my mind...besides the fact that 98% of all my past relationships ended with the guy going for his best friend....but Evan isn't "a guy".. whatever.) Michael is actually a lot more intelligent and nice than I give him credit for, and I'm NOT losing all my friends. Sometimes I hate being a woman. I get so caught up in my stress and hormone imbalance that I bite everyone's head off and judge people a little too harshly. Oh, imperfections, how I despise thee.

I miss Michael. :( We never hang out anymore, and it shouldn't be like that. Especially with all of the stuff we have of each others. I have at least 3 of his games, INCLUDING Rock Band, and he has a few of my movies/games as well... he used to be my gaming buddy. But now I'm with Evan during all of my free time, and when Evan is busy I'm either working or trying to keep up with school work. I shouldn't push all of my friends away like that. Especially someone who has done so much for me. And Evan is the same way. He shouldn't neglect his friends either.

We had this conversation a few days ago, and he did admit that he had been a little neglectful... but that it would all get a lot better once I'm actually able to get out of the house late and go to different places. Which I agree with. I miss Matt too. He calls Evan a lot, but he's only off when I'm at school and when we're BOTH free I'm either too tired to go out and do anything or I can't because I have to watch the girls or something along those lines.

I went to solo ensemble Friday. I hadn't practiced my piece at all (me and my busy schedule HAHA Right.) and had to sing in front of a judge to get a grade. Without the music to rely on. With it being in a different language. And me never having looked at the music. So we went in there at 8. I spent about 2 hours singing it over and over again to memorize it. After 10 people went in front of me, it was my time to go. For some reason, everyone thought it necessary to clap for me (when they didn't for anyone else). It was confusing, but amazing. I went in, did my thing (the bell to switch classes went off during my performance, but I continued without stopping) and then went back to the waiting room. We got our scores... I made a 98. A freaking SUPERIOR. AMAZING. HOW I did, I don't know. But it was amazing. And Cody did a cute little thing for me too that I recorded.

Long story short, TC has computerized pianos, where they are pianos, but they have pieces of music, and wacky sounds pre-recorded into them as well. Cody realized this, and hilarity ensued.


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We went to Fuddruckers afterwards and Michael met me there and got me food because I didn't have enough money (he works there, so it's awesome. Free Cookies!) and we had a good time.

Now I'm just sitting at home chillin' with Evan. We keep making fun of the "ganados" in Resident Evil 4. He keeps trying to decipher what they're saying in Spanish... and he's right 99.9% of the time... which is amazingly hot. I love this boy.

Time to go snuggle. :)