The Toothless

I woke up this morning feeling as though I were a marionette. I felt really heavy and burdened down. I don't know what it was. It could have been the fact that Evan stayed over until 2 in the morning working on my speech with me... or maybe that afterwards we played a full 30 minutes of Guitar Hero 3. Either way... I was extremely tired and felt like a walking corpse. I turned my alarm clock back on and set it for 7:20. It set both my alarm clock, and my cell phone to go off at that time. What happens? Neither alarm went off.

I woke up at around 10 o'clock, and upon seeing that my alarms had failed me, took that as a sign that I should probably disregard my conscious and stay out of school. "It must be a sign from the Gods." Although I highly doubt that would fly with my teachers, if I were to give them that response for why I wasn't there. I tried going back to sleep, but apparently Evan flips out when I don't call him every morning, so he called my home phone and woke me back up. I talked to him for a few hours, and then went and took a bath, making sure to shave my legs and everything (Evan doesn't really care if I forget every once in a while, but I hate hate HATE shaving, and I tend to 'forget' for 3 to 4 weeks on end.)

The rest of the day was spent loafing around on the internet (of course) and waiting for some drip of inspiration to strike me so I could make my first entry on my blog as interesting and nice as possible. Obviously I have failed. But that's okay.

As for right now? It's 7:14 pm. To me, it feels late. I've been sitting here in the same position for over an hour and I'm waiting for my eyeballs to get up and roll right out of my head, out of my room, house & down the street. So I can see the little things, what it feels like to be utterly small, even compared to grass or a pebble. ♥ Because we all know our human egos are far too big for the world we live in, we just stomp, break, rip, build, and do whatever we like whenever we like, and I hope we get a smack in the face soon that might actually affect a few people that have their eyes and ears open. ♥

It's sad though because the only ones who are listening are the only ones who ever understand.


Shteffi Love: I had the worst dream earlier.
Shteffi Love: it was horrible.
spookykow: What was it about?
Shteffi Love: I was in this miami vice neighborhood walking home from a party and I heard this lady yelling and I saw this old lanky man with age spots on his bald head trying to rape her.
Shteffi Love: So I go over to the spot and I tell him he needs to stop, but he ignores me...
Shteffi Love: then this guy in a weird suit and sunglasses comes over to try to stop everything and the old man turns to shoot him
Shteffi Love: so I grab the old man's arm and I'm yelling at him to not shoot the guy
Shteffi Love: so the old man turns the gun on me, i'm struggling with him...and... he GUMS MY HAND Shteffi Love: oddly enough, i'm more enraged by this than him trying to rape and kill people
Shteffi Love: so I take the gun, turn it back on him, and kill him with his own finger on the trigger. Shteffi Love: THE END
Shteffi Love: ...sort of...
Shteffi Love: he made this weird gurgling noise.
spookykow: that's....odd
spookykow: are you ok?
Shteffi Love: yeah
Shteffi Love: why?
Shteffi Love: it was just... weird. but funny. he was chewin on my hand with no teef. I dub that story/dream "The Toothless." Although I think that's an old horror movie. ...Damn
spookykow: Well, you said it was really bad, I was just making sure you weren't emotionally scarred or anything
spookykow: yeah, I thought it was funny, but I didn't wanna say anything
Shteffi Love: did you LAWL?
spookykow: i giggled
spookykow: I had a weird dream the other night after watching the B and E thing.
Shteffi Love: what?
spookykow: It was you and me and like wesley, heather (is that her name, I can never remember) and maybe alex, I'm not sure.
Shteffi Love: yeah, it was heather.
Shteffi Love: continue.
spookykow: We broke into some woman's house in the middle of the night while she was asleep. And we were eating her food and stuff and wesley and heather wouldn't stfu
spookykow: So I went in the other room to tell them to stfu and I saw the woman's arm coming out of a door and it scared the shit out of me. So I was like fuck them, and ran back to tell you but I had a mouth full of gummy bears (because she had a bunch of candy in her kitchen..?) so it took a minute for me to tell you what was happening
spookykow: So we start running out of the house and we're running down the hill ( it kinda looked like that place where you lived with chris) and that's where I woke up
Shteffi Love: lmao.
Shteffi Love: Moral of the story?
spookykow: gummy bears and illegal activities don't mix?
Shteffi Love: Fuck Gummy Bears... go with the meats!