We've only just begun....

So I know I haven't updated this thing in over 2 months. But that's all well and good because no one really reads it EVERYDAY anyway. :) Bekah updated hers yesterday, and it made me think about it, AND I have something I wanted to write about for once, so that actually works out. I have the most amazing, beautiful, most perfect friends in the entire world. And though I never mean to (do any of us EVER MEAN to?) I take them for granted constantly. This is just a reminder to myself that I need to appreciate those closest to me, because they are not always going to be here, and when they are gone, I will be lost.

Michael, you are my rock. I honestly don't know where I would be right now if it weren't for you. I know this sounds horribly cliche and ridiculous, but it's true. My life has turned out the way that it has because of you. Don't shiver at the thought, either. Because even though things are going horrendously bad for us right now, things always seem to get better after a while. You and I were joking a few days ago about how if I had never met you I would probably be off in another state working my way through some university. Although that is probably true, I wouldn't rather be anywhere but here in Asheville in your arms. You are wonderful and seriously like my soul-mate incarnate. You have made me who I am. If it weren't for you I would be a shell of a person. Literally. I would be living in a shell, afraid to talk to anyone or show my true colors. You changed me for the better, and I love you so much for that. If I didn't get to see you everyday... play video games with you, listen to music, argue just to make up later, eat pizza, and generally just waste my life away dicking around, I would probably die. I know I say and do a lot of things that hurt/anger you, and I'm sorry for that. But the thing I love most about you is that I'm always forgiven, no matter what. After about 5 minutes. And we continue on with our lives. No matter what happens, I love you more than anyone else in the entire world. It will ALWAYS be that way, and everyone who knows me, has known me, or WILL know me, needs to understand that first and foremost. You are amazing, and you will always have my heart. I love you, Pigeon.

Bekah, you really have no idea just how much you mean to me. You are simply amazing. One of the few people I trust with everything, and one of the only girls I can get a long with without wanting to cut your head. :P You mean so much to me, and I don't know what I would do without you in my life. I don't know what I did BEFORE I met you. But I do know that you are one of my FAVORITE people in the world. I love you, Bekah. Plain and simple. You open up something in me that has not been seen recently... and I like and missed it. You're my candy-eyed beautiful. We'll walk the streets together and sing Kelly under tagged street signs peering out through steel eyes. We'll walk barefoot downtown, with stars painted at the corners of our eyes: stop and kiss each other and giggle. We'll ignore the looks and blow them a kiss as well, joy-glazed eyes marked with finger paint and happiness. Oh, Bekah, I want to pour into you what you whisper into me. Whispers that fill me from the ends of my hair to my ugly painted toenails. My mind's alight and we're happy and hugging, holding your sturdy doll-like figure in my arms. Amethyst-frosted eyelids and sugar-laced lips, we're flying into such a beautiful delayed love. You're just too far away.... (Just so you know, I'm not like, telling you I'm in love with you or anything. Just that I DO love you, and you mean the world to me.)

My life has been topsy turvy lately. What with lost loves, heartbreaks, new found loves, car breakdowns, road trips, late night Denny's outings, and repossessions.
But overall, I'm pretty happy with where my life is.