I really don't understand as humans how things are so easily forgotten. I've been going on for months... MONTHS, pining, hurting, and whining over this shit. All of it. How in love I was for so long. And now... only 6 months later, I've forgotten everything. I don't remember why I cared. I don't remember who he was. I don't remember what we did. Anything. So it's more or less me asking myself, what the fuck is wrong with you? Why can't I get my thoughts straight. My feelings straight. Anything.
I don't think I'm making much sense. I digress.
As for my life right now, It's completely up in the air. I'm walking on glass. I'm falling, and I don't know which way is up anymore. All of my friends are gone. I don't talk to all of the people I was so in touch with all throughout my life. Lauren is gone. Collete is gone.
I have Wesley.
And I have Michael.
And Jennifer, whom I have only met recently.
But I can tell the genuine from the fake. Now, anyway. I don't know why that was so hard for me all throughout my life.
I can't articulate my thoughts. I feel like I'm drugged. Stupid, and antisocial. I don't know. Maybe more later.
1 comment:
Sweety me and Lauren are here i know it feels like we are gone but we are not. when ever you need me i am here even if you just want to hang out or even i am still here. Its hard when life finally sits in its hard to hang on to the ones you love but you have never lost me nor Lauren. With this guy sweety slow down give your mind your heart and your soul healing. IF you don't then this guy will just be another escape for you and you don't deserve that. You deserve the guy who you can call in the middle of the night when you had a bad dream or just need to talk, the guy who counts the minutes until he can just hear your voice let alone see you. Life is to short and to delicate dear to sit there and look for escapes. when you heal you will see the person for you and you will love and be loved by him 10x more. I love you sweety do not forget that
Collete(aka colletiebettie)
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